Posts Tagged ‘Worry’

Worry

Posted: January 9, 2018 in Army Mom
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Matthew 6:25 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life…

Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

My pastor just started a new sermon series called “Worried? Trusting God Through Tough Times”. Do I ever need this! I am facing deployment #2 with my son and am honestly not handling it as well this time around. I didn’t know what to expect during his first deployment. Now I do. I know what lies before him. I know what he has already seen and experienced and how that has forever affected him. How could it not?!?! I know the demons he will battle both on the frontlines and within. I tell myself that he has a good strong foundation but I know how all this has already made him lose sight of God at times. He has already had several “close calls”. I tease him that he is like a cat and on life #4 right now!

I don’t think I was a worrier or anxious type until I became a parent. After that I questioned, second guessed and over analyzed everything. I still do. It consumes me at times. God trusted me with three of his children and I don’t won’t to mess that up. I also have a control freak problem and military life is something that is definitely out of my control. Being a military mom takes worry and anxiety to a whole new level. I am still struggling almost three years later.

My pastor said that worry is the tolerated sin of the church. Without worry, we wouldn’t have prayer requests. True. I know I have so many people praying for me. I am thankful that they pray for me. Those prayers lift me up on days when I am struggling to stay afloat.

One of the key points to the sermon yesterday was trusting God completely – I will look, I will wait and my God will. So in saying all this and knowing that my God will, my “resolution” for 2018 is my overall mental health, not letting worry or anxiety consume me. I will put more trust in God and less worry on myself, turning all my fears and anxiety over to him, becoming emotionally stronger. I will do this by digging deeper into his word and his promises. I will do daily devotionals and prayer. I would also like to make more time to journal/blog, put my feelings out there for others and maybe help them gain strength through my weakness. So stay tuned friends and let’s see if I concur the Army roller coaster in 2018.

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Tears

Posted: March 2, 2017 in Uncategorized
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I think many of us look at tears as a sign of weakness. I look at it completely opposite; I see it as we have been strong for too long. We all have our breaking point. Sometimes I cry out to God in prayer. My heart will feel so overwhelmed that I don’t even know how or where to begin to pray. God knows our sorrows when we can’t even speak to him. Ain’t that great? He knows my sadness. He knows my worries. He also knows my happiness. Who says we only have to cry because of sad things? God knows my heart. He knows every single tear I have ever cried. Who do you turn to when you want to cry? 132b8fdccfdda4d254c7078285a1b182